Intro(vert)duction

I suppose the first blog is to write about the reason I am blogging. The main reason is that I find myself surrounded with a bunch of free time these days and I like writing. I know my writing needs a LOT of improvement but I tend to slack off and never work on it. A friend of mine suggested blogging and I thought, why not give a shot? I do not think I will blog about important and interesting things, but hey, who says only people with interesting things to say can blog! :)

I used to write journals. I started it in 2001 when I was a junior in high school. It was probably just around the time when so called love-thing happened to me and I was too scared to share it with anyone. Switching gears, I shall better give my introduction, eh? I know my English posses a lot of canadian "ehs?", American"huhs" or "alrightys," spanish "ciaos," and English "piss offs" but no, I do not belog to any of these countries. I am from a small place called Ladakh and I find it necessary to introduce one such word of my native language that I can use in my multi-cultural english writing - "ha."
Ha! can mean anything from whaaaat!, riiiiiiight (when looking for affirmation), whattt (loud with a "you are pissing me off" look), waaat (with a lovers warmth), etc- all depending upon the situation and the way it is delivered. Anyway, we can go into the details later. Ladakh one of the three provinces in the state of Jammu and Kashmir in India and I like to call it an open castle of sturdy mountains!!

Many people tend to think it is a Buddhist dominated place, but recently I read somewhere, that in whole of ladakh, perhaps there is 50/50 population of Muslims and Buddhist. Technically I am a Buddhist by birth. However, when I am asked anything about Buddhism, I tend to cover my ignorance about it by a sentence I once heard from somewhere "you know the most beautiful thing about Buddhism is that it starts at mending one's heart and if you trying to do that, you are a Buddhist" and so I tell people, I am a Buddhist without feeling that I am lying. Whenever I use this, I find no further questions on Buddhism bomarded at me. It is indeed nice and easy escape without making me look too foolish, but honeslty I would like to know more. In my heart I do not know what religion I follow. Sometimes I call myself atheist, sometimes agnostic, sometimes even multi-religious, but most of the time Buddhist probably because I find a glitz of admiration in the eyes of people when I say this and unlike some other religion, I am exempted from negative prejudices. Perhaps I am taking advantage of the name of the religion, but I never said I do not believe in Buddhism. It is just the fact that I do not know much about me that sub-consciously questions me if I, really, am a Buddhist. Oh well, like many other things in my life, I donot have to figure this one right here and right now. Do I? hmmm...

Anyway, see thats the problem with me. I always go off in tangents away from the motive whenever I embark on anything. I started to write a short and precise introduction, and look, what thoughts dragged me! My thoughts are untamed wild horses in a remote countryside in Montana - the gate opens, they let themselves loose. And nope, they aren't dogs that I can leash.

I shall stop now. However, I must say to whoever reads this (if there is any :) ), please pardon me for any mistakes I make. I tend to be very conscious about my mistakes. I am very intimidated with my limited grammar and vocabulary which is probably why I do not tend to show people my writing. I must overcome this and through this blog I will try. At this point, I am thrilled that I am letting go of the fear that people will judge me and letting my wildhorses of imagination loose whenever I get time! Enjoy and leave your comments :). Ciao!